Keep my commands.
This verse is one of the spiritual markers in my life. About 25 years ago, the Holy Spirit broke through a barrier in my mind and sunk these words deep into my heart.
Of course I loved Jesus! I had been saying this my entire life! Longer than I can remember!
But was I keeping his commands – doing what he said?
Umm. Some times. A little of it.
So, did that mean I only loved Jesus a little bit?
I felt like I loved Jesus a lot but my level of committment and obedience just didn’t line up with that.
If I really loved Jesus a lot, then I needed to be doing a lot of what he said.
Or stop saying I loved him.
Wow! A bunch of things in my heart and in my life needed to change! I wasn’t a bad person but I was definitely trying to be my own little god by attempting to control the world – or at least my own little corner of the world.
My need for control needed to go. Worrying need to go – worrying is not trusting. How I used my time, talents and treasures needed to line up with God’s will, not mine.
As my life has gradually gotten more in line with God’s plans and purposes for me, the fact that I really love Jesus has become much more obvious.
It all comes down to one word – obedience.
Thank you in advance, dear Father, for giving me the strength, the wisdom and the courage I will need for the rest of this journey.