No faking it.
You and I see the outside of people – what they look like, what they wear, where they live and how they act.
God has an entirely different perspective of us – he looks on the inside. He knows my intentions, my motivations and desires. He knows what I’m thinking – I don’t have to say anything.
When Samuel was picking who would be king after Saul, God said to him, “People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.” Knowing this is true challenges me as well as gives me confidence. I’m glad God sees below my surface – he understands my true feelings. He knows me better than any human being ever could.
But the fact that God knows my thoughts also challenges me. Like many of us who have been on this road of faith for a long time, I have gotten better at not saying things I shouldn’t say. But have I trained my mind to not think them? Have I let God renew my mind so it doesn’t go where it shouldn’t go? The honest answer is – sometimes. There are areas of my life where it is difficult to control my thinking. There are other situations where I find it pretty easy to leave it all with God.
With the Coronavirus, for example, I am not having a difficult time of ‘letting go and letting God’. I am so obviously NOT in control of this pandemic that I am finding that I can easily turn any concerns or fears I have about this craziness over to God. Meanwhile, I’ll do my part, confident that God is in control of everything.
My husband and I have been in the process of selling a home, moving to another state and buying a home this last month in the middle of the pandemic. For some reason, God decided this was the right time for us to do all this. Experience tells me that I’ll probably understand this much better in a couple years when I look in the rearview mirror.
For right now, it’s comforting to know that when God looks at my heart today, he can see that I’m trusting him with all of it. I know that he loves me with a perfect love and is working it all out for my good.
God has promised and he always keeps his promises.
Thank you, Abba Father.