Have you been there?
I have. I am still struggling with the most extreme adversity I have ever experienced. On May 18, 2016 my world exploded. My son, David Glasser, was a Phoenix Police Officer who was killed in the line of duty on that day.
I have experienced quite a lot of death in my life but this is – by far – the hardest.
Davey was a unique young man who was dedicated to serving his community and dedicated to living life to its fullest with fun, going everywhere and anywhere, while collecting a vast number of friendships. He did all of this with an obvious devotion and love for his family. My husband and I lived 1 1/2 miles from Davey and his wife and 2 children the last 5 years of his life. We talked with him daily and saw him almost every day for one reason or another.
I don’t have the words for how painful this last 5 1/2 years have been. It defines adversity. Living with the reality of my circumstances is a struggle.
As I read the book of Job in the Bible, I can relate. Job experiences the shock of getting terrible news that all of his children have been killed. I can relate. Then, after the first horrible news, painful things just kept happening. I can relate. When people around him started saying strange and wrong things to him, I can relate. Job questioned God and wondered why this was all happening to him. I can relate. He was overwhelmed with sorrow. I can relate.
It’s a huge struggle.
Job was confident that his redeemer lived and he was confident that – in the end – his redeemer wins. I can relate. He knew that God was in total control and all-powerful. I can relate.
Job committed his life to being faithful to God in spite of his circumstances. I can relate. He praised God in the middle of all of the pain he was experiencing. I can relate. He knew that is was wise to turn from evil and love God. I can relate.
Job had a long conversation with God. I can relate – I have had many long conversations with God about my son’s death. Job confessed that he did not understand. I can relate – I will never completely understand this. Job’s eyes were opened in a new way to the reality that God has a plan and purpose for each of us and that God’s ways are not our ways. I can relate.
God gave Job peace in the middle of his pain and blessed him.
I can relate.
Thank you for helping me in my struggle, Abba Father.