What’s Next?





God has been seriously re-shaping my heart since I became a committed believer about 30 years ago.  When I was young, I had a close relationship with Jesus but it got lost in a season of rebellion and confusion about the truth in my young adulthood.  Six years of that messy time taught me how empty my life was without God.  I discovered that all the ‘fun’ and partying and working extra hard for ‘stuff’ was meaningless and a dead end.

So I re-committed my whole heart to God over 30 years ago and I’ve been on this Journey toward the truth ever since.

God tells us in Deuteronomy, “Circumcise your hearts, therefore, and do not be stiff-necked any longer.”  Looking back, I see evidence that God working on my heart, circumcising the parts that needed to change –

  • He cut out the rebellious part of my heart.  No matter what happens, my heart now submits to God’s will.  He knows best.
  • God cut out the stubborn part.  I translate “stiff-necked” as being stubborn and God has softened my heart towards everything that is about him and comes from him.
  • God cut out any parts of my heart that were unbelieving.  I don’t have to understand it all to believe.  If God says it, it’s true.  God has taught my eyes to look beyond what is in front of me.
  • God is working on the parts of my heart where I want to control things around me.  Sometimes I still get anxious and worried because it’s not all going according to my plan.  Isn’t that crazy?  I know who is in total control and it’s not me.  I continue to have to remind myself to ‘let go and let God’.  I know he’s working on this part of my heart because it’s gradually becoming easier for me to recognize my lack of control early in a situation and step back – trusting God as he orchestrates everything for my good.
  • My heart was shattered into a million broken, mangled pieces when my son was killed in the line of duty.  I can feel God molding a new heart inside of me out of the debris.  It a heart that is stronger with a better focus on my forever home.

Circumcising my heart sounds painful but it has actually set me free from the lies and worries that the world around us tries to impose on us.

And the transformation continues…..

Thank you, Abba Father.

It’s Supernatural

Have you experienced the supernatural movement of God in your life?

If you have put your faith in Jesus, you have.  You may not have recognized it.  Have you ever watched while something just ‘works out’?  That’s God.  You may have called it a coincidence but it’s really a ‘God-incidence’. 

We read in Deuteronomy that the clothes of Israelites did not wear out in the 40 years they wandered in the desert.  What?

And their feet did not swell for 40 years.  No way!

40 years and their clothes were still good.  40 years of walking thousands of miles in the hot, dirty desert and no swelling!

Only God could do something like this!

The Israelites were slaves before going into the desert so I’m sure they didn’t have a lot of clothes to start with.  They regularly had to pack up everything they owned and move it across the desert so I’m sure they didn’t own much at all.  And our very practical God realized that their clothes not wearing out would help simplify their journey.  Keeping their feet healthy also kept them moving.

So God took care of it – just like he takes care of you and me.  God is always right beside us taking care of the details.  Here are a few recent examples of how he has taken care of me in very practical ways –

  • Not too long ago we sold a car for 2 1/2 times what we planned on selling it for.  God took us to the right people at the right time.
  • Almost every day God brings people into my life to encourage me and urge me on – one step at a time.
  • God has been leading the foundation we started to continue the legacy of my son who was a police officer killed in the line of duty.  He brings just the right people at just the right time.
  • I am in the middle of a big change in direction and I’m watching God orchestrate it – piece by piece.


It’s really amazing to watch my all-powerful Father move and work out the details on my behalf.

Thank you, Abba.

What Came First?

Did I love God first?

Or did he love me first?

God’s Word is very clear that he loved me first.  When I was a tiny newly-fertilized egg inside of mother, God knew me and loved me. 

As I read the words Moses said to the Israelites in one of his last addresses to them before his death, I am challenged to evaluate how well I love God.

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and will all your soul and with all your strength.”

What would it feel like if I loved God with all my heart?  What do I need to change so I can love God with all my soul?  What would my life be like if I loved God with all my strength?

How can I ignore the distractions of this world and the strong desire to do what I want to do so I can love God first?

I am God’s child and he is my Perfect Father.  I know he wants me to love him more and love him better than I do now.  As long as I seek him first, he will show me the way.

I’m following you, Abba Father.  Thank you.


and stronger.

As the Israelites prepare to enter the Promised Land, Moses tells them that God is going to “drive out before you nations greater and stronger than you.”

The Israelites were going to be fighting against enemies with huge armies of men who had built tall walls around their cities.  And God was going to give them victory.  He was headed into battle with them – there was nothing to fear.

God is saying this same thing to me today –

and to you.

You and I have some big battles coming our way.  If we aren’t in the middle of them now, we probably don’t have long to wait.  That’s just how it is on this broken planet.

God promises us that he will go with us and guide us through.  In some situations we will see a clear victory and other times it’s what we learn and how we grow through the battle that makes us a winner.

Because God, our Father, has already won the war.  Jesus defeated sin and death for us.

As a believer, I know how this story ends for me.

Happily Ever After.

Thank you, Abba Father.

I Have to Believe

I have to trust.

Otherwise I’ll act like the Israelites as they wandered around in the desert.  Whining. Stubborn.  Forgetting all the things God had already done for them.  Showing no gratitude for how God was currently leading them and providing for them.

I don’t want to be like them.

It’s a fact that I have even less excuse for this kind of bad behavior than they did because, as a believer living under the New Covenant, I have the Spirit of God living in me.  They didn’t have the Holy Spirit.

Yes, I have the Holy Spirit, but if I don’t trust in the love and grace of God, I will be just like them.  If I don’t let God lead me and fight my battles for me, I will cut myself off from his blessings just like they did.

If I forget how faithful God has been to me all of my life, I will become a bitter grumbler just like them.

I’m not going to do that.  I choose to believe, trust and put my faith in the One True God, Creator of the Universe.

What do you choose?

I love you, Abba Father.


A Cloud of Guidance

A Cloud of Guidance.

I would like one.  Wouldn’t you?

As the Israelites start moving across the desert, we read more in the book of Numbers about the Cloud of God which initially covered the tabernacle.  Now the cloud begins to guide the Israelites – step by step – on their journey.

When the cloud lifted from the tabernacle, approximately 2.5 million Israelites would break camp and follow.  When the cloud settled back down on a spot, they would all stop, put up the tabernacle and then set up camp in their assigned places around it.  We read that sometimes the cloud was over the tabernacle only a few days before moving on and other days the cloud stayed only from evening to the next morning.  Whether the cloud remained over the tabernacle for 2 days or a year, the Israelites stayed until it lifted.  Then they packed up and moved on.

At night the cloud became a pillar of fire.  Of course it did!  That way the Israelites could see it in the dark and know they were exactly where they were supposed to be.

Wow!  There are alot of situations in my life where I would love to have such clear guidance!

On second thought, as a believer, I know I have the Spirit of God living in me – my own cloud!

I just need to tune in and be sensitive to the Holy Spirit’s moving and prompting.  The easiest way for me to do this is to spend time reading and thinking about what God is telling me every day through his Word.   Sometimes I’m supposed to move and other times I’m supposed to be still, focused on my relationship with him.

It’s amazing how clearly he speaks when I’m listening carefully and consistently.

Thank you for giving me my own Cloud of Guidance, Abba Father.

It’s Done


All the weaving, measuring and hammering was done.  Moses set up the courtyard around the tabernacle and put up the curtain to the entrance.


“Then the cloud covered the tent of meeting and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle.”


There are times during the praise part of worshipping God with my spiritual family when I visualize a cloud billowing into the room.  As I watch, the glory of the LORD fills the space around me.  God’s word tells us that he ‘inhabits’ the praise of his people.

God is always near but there are two places in my life where he feels most near to me –

  • the first place is right now with my Bible open in my lap and my ears and heart open to what he wants to say to me.
  • the second is when I’m joining with God’s people in praising him.  This is especially true for me when a praise song includes pivotal truths that have been game-changers in my life.  This last Sunday we lifted our praise up to our ‘Good, Good Father’ while tears streamed down my face.  A cloud of God’s grace and love filled the room and my heart.  God is good, he loves me and always wants the best for me even when I can’t see it.  These are all facts that have gotten me through the last 3 1/2 painful years since my son was killed.

And the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle.

Thank you, Abba Father.


The Light Wins

Secret Arts.

Those are the words my Bible uses when explaining how the Pharoah’s magicians did the same ‘tricks’ as God did through Moses.

It’s interesting to replace ‘secret arts’ with the name of who was really behind the magician’s powers – Satan.  It’s always a battle of good versus evil and most of those battles are fought in the spiritual realm.  This one was very visible on earth.

It started when Aaron threw his staff down in front of Pharoah and it became a snake.  Pharoah’s magicians did the same thing with their staffs with Satan’s help.

But here’s a twist – Aaron’s snake swallowed up the other snakes.  In the writing world, we would call this foreshadowing – this is how the whole battle is going to go.  God is all-powerful, Satan is not.

Even after his snakes are eaten right in front of him, Pharoah remained stubborn and unmoved.  That’s just who he was.

Next, God changed the Nile into blood. (Yuck!)  But then Pharoah’s magicians did the same thing – again with Satan’s help.

Of course, Pharoah’s heart remained hard and stubborn.

So God sent a plague of frogs which covered the ground as well as the insides of their houses.  Once again, Satan helped Pharoah’s magicians do the same thing.

Pharoah’s stubborn refusal to let the Israelites go continued, so God sent a plague of gnats.  But – get this.  The magicians were unable to produce gnats.

What happened, Satan?  Run out of steam?

Or did the Creator of the Universe get tired of playing your games and shut you down?

Suddenly, Satan no longer replies but we read the deadly result of his continued whispers into Pharoah’s ear.  Pharoah’s heart becomes more and more stubborn so God ups his response with the next plague of flies.

Do you notice?  Now the plagues start to only affect the Egyptians, not God’s people.  The 9th plague of darkness is truly amazing to me.  The land was in total darkness – they couldn’t see their hands in front of their faces – except God’s people.  The light still shone down on the people of Israel.

I feel that is true today.  Our world can be such a dark and confusing place – full of disappointment and heartbreak.  Only God brings true light into the darkness.

We can fool ourselves into thinking that money or recognition or a relationship with the right person brings light.  But all of those will eventually feel empty – ‘is this all there is’ – without God.

Have we figured this out yet?  Our lives will be ‘plagued’ by darkness until we put God in the center.

Thank you for being ‘The Light of the World”, Jesus.


Let Me Know You

Reveal yourself to me, Father.

Open my eyes,  open my ears,

soften my heart towards the things you love.

I join with Moses today and ask, “Let me know your ways so I may understand you more fully and continue to enjoy your favor.”

My soul longs for understanding, Father.  Renew my mind so it focuses on your truth only.  Transform my thinking so the lies of the Evil one have no power in my life.

Teach my feet to follow in your ways.  Train my hands to reach out to the world that you love, God.

Like Moses, I want to enjoy your favor, Father God.  Guide me so I may live under your umbrella of blessing all my days here on earth.

I trust you with my life – you created me and you know me.  I look forward to that day you have already determined when you will take my hand and guide me home to be with you.

Such a glorious day!

I love you, Abba Father.

There is Light

Look around – do you see the darkness?  Evil lurks.  Hate grows.  Sin is encouraged.  Violence moves closer.

It’s dark.

But God’s people live in the light because God is light.  The presence of God’s Spirit in my soul brings light.

I love the visual picture I get in my mind as I read Exodus 10:21-29.  The LORD made a plague of darkness cover the entire land of Egypt because Pharoah would not let the Israelites leave.  It was so dark that the Egyptians could not move because they could not see their next step.

“But there was light as usual where the people of Israel lived.”  Can you see it?  Light shining on the people of God while everywhere around them was pitch black.

That’s our whole world today.  God’s light of love and grace and forgiveness shines down on us – his children – while the rest of our world lives in darkness.   God still loves the rest of our world – that’s why he sent Jesus to pay the penalty for our sins so every one has the opportunity to believe and be saved  That’s why God asks us to share our stories, our “God experiences” with those who are living in darkness – so they can put their faith in Christ and be saved.

Because we are followers of Christ, God shines his light into my life and into yours.

I feel it.  Do you?

If you don’t feel his light, the best answer I know is to get closer to him.  And then closer.  And even more close.  You’ll start to feel it.

If you”re like me and feel God’s light in your life today and every day, please join me in praising and thanking him –

You are an awesome father, God.  Thank you for shining your light into our lives and saving us from the darkness.  We love you!